You were my first light and one true source of happiness. Yet I can't help feel this sense of impending doom between us. I think we both know how this is going to play out. You and I shall be locked in an unending battle.
I shall try to straighten you and you will fight to be lazy.
I shall try to discipline you and you will be rebellious.
I shall try to get your attention but you will meet me with indifference.
For the longest time we will have nothing but misunderstandings and anger and frustrations. We will hurt each other with the deepest of wounds.
But the greatest loves never come without the greatest struggles. And despite everything, my first, my dearest, I shall love you the most of all.
My dear dear friend,
As I compose this letter I am listening to that itunes playlist you gave me. I'm up to the Beatles covers by those obscure Japanese singers. Wonderful stuff!
Anyway these aren't really real letters, just another outlet to preserve my sanity. If I write to you like this its as if I feel that you're closer to me. We need our dearest friends closest to us, and this exercise comes as great comfort.
J told me the other day that you and I are beginning to look like each other. Do you think so? Its a nice thought actually, that if I look like you I'd thin out a bit. Lol.
Stay happy and keep moisturising.
You really made things better for me. I feel happier. I’m less angry now. I feel safe and I feel that I can believe in something again. You woke something up in me. A new drive? Motivation? Passion? Maybe all of them. But the point is, I now feel like I want to wake up tomorrow and start my life. I don’t I can ever thank you enough for that.